Inspired by: Becoming more and more jaded about relationships.
This was a song I really wanted to save for my next project, but I couldn't wait that long to release it. I had the concept of the song for a while, but didn't have the right beat for it until I heard this one. The first verse is about a transparent relationship, the second verse is about things getting a little cloudy and translucent and the third verse is about completely opaque with the person you're in a relationship with. It's a pretty simple concept, but I'm pretty proud of my writing on this one.
lyrics
[Verse 1]
I can see through you, transparent like purified water
Everything’s beautified, nothing hubris-tied and falters
We two humans tied, looking at the bluest skies and saunter
We just wonder and wander, with no place to go, but
It still feels like something we got control of, this whole love
Ay girl hold up, just give it time to grow, love
The sun shine through the looking glass, got me looking back
Like when you said “I love you” you never took it back
You knew more about me than I knew myself
And when times was hard, never too proud to use my help
And you’d go away for a while, I’d miss you like hell
We always kept it true, never used lies or stealth
But we were young, these were things we could get away with
As we start to get older, shit gets a little more complicated
We knew everything, cuz we were the only people we’ve ever dated
Til one of us gets complacent, and then everything changes
[Verse 2]
… Things are starting to get kinda translucent
Now I’m walking around clueless, I don’t know what to do, shit
You settled down with a new dude, and I got a few chicks
And it feels kinda useless, I know I’ve been stupid
… Now every new girl kinda pales in comparison
I dodge calls, ain’t tryin to move ford like Harrison
Shit’s embarrassing, you trying to see through me
Kinda cloudy, not too sure if you like the new me
Asking questions, like this ain’t how you used to be
What happened to you, this ain’t how it goes usually
She’s trying to picture a future for us, and that’s when it gets blurry
I can tell she wants that ring more than Steph Curry
I’m just trying to do my own thing, damn what’s the hurry
A few days go by, I don’t call and she starts to worry
Check my phone, unread messages, she says I miss ya
Then she sends one more, all right, now I get the picture
[Bridge]
Now I’ve seen more of the world, there’s not much out there for me
Most days so cloudy, most nights are so stormy
Most calls I’ve been ignoring, they just don’t seem important
Now it’s all foreign, someone shoulda warned them
All my lies are so shady, don’t know why you believe in them
New girls try to save me, I’ll be out before the evening ends
And that’s just how the season ends, we start all over
That’s when I black out, now I don’t at all know her
[Verse 3]
Let me sit back, rip a six pack of ways to escape
Empty word document, can’t find any proper ways to say
Cant figure it out, I’m completely opaque
Drink a domestic beer trying find the place where honesty stay
I’m probably, constantly too lost in my ways
Self-sabotage in the most boring obnoxious of ways
Things will never be like they were back in the old days
Fast years, slow days, wake up to a cold spray
Brush my teeth, dry my face, still barely awake
Every girl that ever moved me is married or engaged
Maybe that’s why I act out, I black out, can’t hold liquor
I wake in the morning sicker, things seem to go quicker
Last time we spoke, you had a different last name
I only changed my zip code and maybe I added weight
I lost a couple numbers from girls I probably should date
And I blocked you from ever being able to reach out to me
Could’ve used your help, it’s clear now I see
It’s clear now I see
It’s clear now I see
But it’s too late for me
credits
from I'm New Here,
released May 1, 2016
Produced by: BlacKeys
Mixed by: Emma Gyger
Mastered by: Kevin Cairns
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